19 days to go!

Well well, is been a while I know, but let’s just say that i am evidently getting lazy. My entire body is tight taunt and about ready to explode.

At this point, whatever I need to do, I do immediately and cannot risk keeping anything for later. I shave every 4 days, have a pedicure every week and recheck and repack everything. I think I am actually adding to my exhaustion. The nesting phase just hit me and yesterday for the first time since February, I washed dishes! Ha! I had to fight the need to go outside and rake the fallen leaves in the compound and the only thing that stopped me is that the activity required me to bend. When I see dudus I want to fumigate the entire house, when I see a messy kitchen top I want to scrub down the floors…. Hehehe… this is exciting.

Brycen is fully cooked now and all systems are go. He is basically just chilling and putting on his last few grams while still in the comfort of my fabulous womb and should be about 2.8kgs. I am now used to my swollen feet, numbness, acne, dark skin, plus new aches and pains that seem to pop up every time I change position. Last night I actually read up on natural ways to induce labor coz I am thinking if he is ready, why he heck is he still in there?

Will be having my internal exam on Monday (yes Lilian it was postponed 2 weeks) to see how things are progressing. Am actually not looking forward to anyone or anything entering my vejayjay and I have heard that the process is rather uncomfortable.

Where are my ankles?

This is it, surely. At this point, there is nothing i can do to bring the swelling in my feet down. My fingers are also constantly numb and puffed up.

In my mind, Brycen is coming in 17 days, hehehe... so i am kinda ok with looking the way i look right now. Lucy said i was beautifully fat, when i was whining about how ugly i looked and felt. I guess i should look in the mirror less often and use my mental mirror to imagine what i look like.

I have to see my OB on Monday to determine how Brycen is coming out, i know he is coming out naturally, i do not want it any other way; but i guess the doctor needs to be sure for himself. Will update you on how it goes...

Labor, let’s bring on the pain!

I do not know my pain threshold, neither do I like being in pain. I yelp when I hit my knee on the corner of a table and cringe at the sight of an injection. I am a first time mom and believe it or not, I am so ready for labor and delivery.

I have overdosed on literature and videos of the whole labor process and and I can actually visualize my lil’ man easing (ok, maneuvering) through my exit. But that is just it, somehow, I do not “see” the pain, the screams and all the drama that I am sure I will cause, all I am seeing in lil’ Brycen, knowing that it is time to meet his mama, using all the little energy he has to push through the muscles and obstacles of my birth canal. I see him, with eagerness, wondering where this road is leading to, and I, with triple eagerness, screaming my lungs out, telling my mind to relax and probably with the least decency imaginable, opening my precious insides for all to see as my angel make his maiden appearance into this glorious world.

I see him, with his round button nose, with a squint in his deep dark eyes, as he comes out into the light. He takes his first breath (the elated feeling of which reduces him to tears),and me, buried in indescribable pain (a feeling which instantly disappears when I his cries); join him in the momentous occasion as I see him for the first time and all glory glory glory be to God!

So pain? What pain, bring it on!

5 Weeks to go!

5 weeks to go, Really!!!

Well i am so so ready. Everything is packed, and i am ready to pop. Last night i visualised how it would all begin. It would be in the morning at about 4am when the minor contractions will start. I am thinking i would probably wait an hour or two to see if they are consistent before i call Brian and Julie and let them know Brycen is on his way. Though I will be at my Mom's she will be the last person to know, because she will probably get a spike in her blood pressure once she finds out. So i will try n keep it from her as much as i can. At about 7am, when the contractions have intensified and are now painful, we will head to the hospital which is 10 mins away and things will progress from there... right! Hahaha... well this is the plan that i am focusing on in my head and will continue to visualise it until it comes to fruition.

At 34 and a half weeks, well i am hanging in there. I do not feel like i have gained much weight, but i guess i should have considering that Brycen should be about 2.1 kgs at this point. If he grows steadily gaining the recommended .22 grams per week, we should be 3.4 kgs by birth. Ha.... that seems big!

My adorable friends threw me a surprise baby shower on the 25th of September. I was so wonderfully surprised and we had the best time ever. I so love you girlfriends and God bless your kind and thoughtful hearts. I will upload pics when i get them from Irwin.

I am not quite sure which position Brycen is at, at this point coz the kicks and movements are all over the mid-section. Last doctors appointment he was head down and i sure hope he has not moved.

Meanwhile Aunt Angie is planning to make a singer out of you Baby B, mbu you gotta be a superstar. She will train you and nurture your talent (hoping you inherit the singing voice from your mama) and Justin Bieber will have nothing on you.